jungle goddess

Here we come a piping,

In Springtime and in May;

Green fruit aripening,

And Winter fled away.

The Queen she sits upon the strand,

Fair as lily, white as wand;

Seven billows on the sea,

Horses riding fast and free,

And bells beyond the sand

tying the Cord,
renewing the Earth;
we are Her Children,
bringing Rebirth.
we are the Flow and we are the Ebb;
we are the Weavers,
we are the Web

Crescent One of the starry skies, Flowered One of the fertile plain,
Flowing One of the ocean's sighs, Blessed One of the gentle rain.
Hear my chant 'midst the standing stones, Open me to your mystic light.
Waken me to your silver tones, Be with me in my sacred rite!

East I call to you,
High above the trees
Gliding on a soft breeze
Eagle come to me.

South I call to you,
Burning within me
Running through the jungle
Panther come to me.

West I call to you,
Deep within the sea
Dancing with the waves
Dolphin come to me.

North I call to you,
Underneath my feet
Howling at the full moon
Wolf come to me.

Center I call you,
Everywhere I see
Joining in the circle
Snake come to me.

Lady of the morning
Maiden full of grace
Remind me of my courage
Hail and welcome be.

Lady of the moon
Mother round and full
Remind me of my creative spark
Hail and welcome be.

Lady of the dark
Crone the teacher still
Remind me of my wisdom
Hail and welcome be.

Tree Huggers

YES! we are happy with our trees, our flowers, our waterfalls, our lake and our beaches...

Raiders of Gor

1. Here they come running
2. surprised there is not battle
3. surprised that the jungles of Gor may not be what they thought it would, and gratefully accepting to drink from our tub
4. Gratefully accepting a cup of the best Vulo soup on Gor
5. and the Taluna tries her best in seduction!!!
6. but she has no success...a pity...another male lost...she needs to hone her seductive skills, it seems
7. Summary

1. Here they come running

[9:39] jungle drums shout: Rryen xxxx
[9:39] cathli's jungle drums shout: Rryen xxxx
[9:39] Shark Joe Smiling Jaws V1.6i shouts: SHARKS ARE HUNGRY !!!
[9:39] Shark William D V1.6i shouts: SHARKS ARE HUNGRY !!!


2. surprised there is not battle

[9:40] Larah Oh: Tal, runner of gor
[9:40] Rryen xxxx: tal
[9:40] Rryen xxxx: you a runaway slave?
[9:41] Larah Oh: you must be lost...running through the jungles...nine weeks of walking from schendi
[9:41] Larah Oh: are the kurii on your heels?
[9:41] Rryen xxxx: actualy i have a boat
[9:41] Rryen xxxx: but there were sharks


3. surprised that the jungles of Gor may not be what they thought it would, and gratefully accepting to drink from our loo

[9:41] Larah Oh: you have a boat?...still its a lot of paddling upriver from the thassa...
[9:41] Larah Oh: what brings you out of Gor into the middle of nowhere, all alone, runner of gor?
[9:42] Rryen xxxx: yeah its got like a sail and stuff you know grin
[9:42] Rryen xxxx: well i am a fisherman and i was fishing and mapping this area
[9:42] Larah Oh: well there is no sailing upriver...so you will have rowed..poor you...you must be hungry
[9:42] Rryen xxxx: i am hungry yes
[9:42] Rryen xxxx: and thristy
[9:42] Larah Oh: we happen to have some vulo soup on the fire....points to the camp...
[9:42] Rryen xxxx: oh?
[9:42] Rryen xxxx: lead the way
[9:43] Larah Oh: the lake is sweetwater...smiles...have more drinks than you ever dreamt of....smiles
[9:43] Rryen xxxx: i was thinking more like paga
[9:43] Larah Oh: oh...the next tavern is where you came from...in Port schendi
[9:44] Larah Oh: thats the last place where beverages from civilized gor could be had
[9:44] Rryen xxxx: ah well lead the way to your camp i will see what you have
[9:44] Larah Oh: we have water...smiles...but that is here, at the lake
[9:44] Larah Oh: in camp we have vulo soup
[9:44] Rryen xxxx: good come serve me some soup then
[9:44] Larah Oh smiles...and again....you are invited
[9:45] Rryen xxxx: come along
[9:45] Larah Oh: are you not thirsty?...you said so
[9:45] Rryen xxxx: yes
[9:45] Larah Oh points to the lake with a smile....
[9:45] Larah Oh: then please have a drink...once you did, I show you the fireplace with the vulo soup
[9:46] Rryen xxxx takes a knee as i splash some water on my face and drink some from hand a few times


4. Gratefully accepting a cup of the best Vulo soup on Gor

[9:46] Larah Oh smiles...I am happy I could help...
[9:46] Larah Oh: come...smiles
[9:47] Larah Oh: have a seat, runner of gor...smiles
[9:47] Larah Oh: there is the pot with the vulo soup...get yourself a coconut shell...smiles
[9:47] Rryen xxxx rubs my chin and looks you over so,,,tell me pretty girl where did you run from?
[9:48] Larah Oh: its the best in the jungles, I d say...smiles
[9:48] Larah Oh: me?...laughs...I live here...runner of gor...
[9:48] Rryen xxxx: i am sure you have not always lived here
[9:48] Larah Oh points to the vulo soup...but I am sure you did not travel nine weeks upriver from schendi to ask me where I was born
[9:48] Rryen xxxx takes the shell and the soup on the fire as i fill the large shell with it bring it to my both as i eat
[9:49] Larah Oh smiles...what do you know about Talunas of gor?
[9:49] Larah Oh: what do you know about the jungles?
[9:50] Rryen xxxx: not much but i know a girl like you would bring a silver on the slave market
[9:50] Larah Oh: now you make me laugh indeed!!!!
[9:50] Larah Oh: there are millions of girls on the slave markets and on the streets of port schendi...and you are telling me you travel nine weeks upriver to find another????
[9:50] Rryen xxxx: i am being serious,, i have seen uglier girls in the best paga taverns
[9:51] Larah Oh: you need a physician...
[9:51] Larah Oh: but we don t have any in the jungles....
[9:51] Rryen xxxx: no, i not looking for one here,,,i just make the piont is that you,,would bring a silver
[9:51] Larah Oh: but I can give you the adress of a good physician...smiles
[9:51] Larah Oh: oh...then that is a misunderstanding...smiles gently...
[9:51] Larah Oh: I have never seen a 'silver'...can you explain what that is?
[9:52] Rryen xxxx: its currency you buy things with it like girls like you and soup like this
[9:52] Rryen xxxx: surly men have come to take you away in chains ?
[9:52] Larah Oh: you BUY suop????..now that is an interesting concept...giggles
[9:53] Larah Oh: well here you need not buy soup...here you can eat until you are not hungry anymore...smiles gently...
[9:54] Larah Oh watches you eat and smiles gently...
[9:54] Rryen xxxx: most men would not let you lay up there nude like that, they would have you in a collar and chains on your knees
[9:54] Larah Oh: you must come from even farer away than the jungles...
[9:55] Larah Oh: else you would have known that that is not the custom in the jungles
[9:55] Rryen xxxx sips more of the soup as i relax back


5. and the Taluna tries her best in seduction!!!

[9:55] Larah Oh: its hot here....you may take your shirt off instead of suffering in the moist heat...
[9:55] Rryen xxxx: oh i doubt city men care about the customs of your forest
[9:56] Larah Oh: well there are no cities in the jungles...the jungles do not care for cities...even bila haruma, the black ubar lives not in a city
[9:56] Larah Oh: the trees, I think...do not care for houses...smiles gently...
[9:57] Larah Oh: where is your homestone, wanderer of gor, so far away from the world that you know?
[9:58] Rryen xxxx: i dont particluar have one,,a homestone


6. but she has no success...a pity...another male lost...she needs to hone her seductive skills, it seems

[9:58] Rryen xxxx: stands up and takes more soup as i fill the shell and eat more
[10:03] Rryen xxxx: be well girl
[10:03] Rryen xxxx: well i will go to my boat now, i dont trust you live alone and not sure i want to be here whensome of your tibe comes home
[10:03] Rryen xxxx has left the sim.


7. Summary

Vulo soup seems not to be seductive...a pity...me I like it! Maybe we should add an aphrodisiacal...:/

Larah's & Cathli's Battle Bows

Computed Autofire Reconnaissance
Low Range enhanced Register Arrows
Low Range behind the Horizon buoyancy hit Curve (Siege mode)
Low Range steep angle enhanced direct hit curve
Gorean Meter (GM) Scripted
Five different shoot soundsets
Draw Sound
Five different Siege Arrows
Adjustable Speed
Adjustable Aim height
SL Zero Directional Arrow
Parallel scripted
Mono Compiled
Mouseview Button
Full Range Gesture Access
Glow Tail Tracer Arrow
Concise Hit Protocol
Color Code Arrows
Combat mode/ Ultra Low Lag mode
Poison Arrow (ML)
Resize Scripted
Optional Toggledraw
Integrated Sim lag (dilation ) meter

Makers Guarantee: Free update Service
The Scripts are robust and multiply tested, checked, rechecked to ensure its never failing
If you battle on the large Battlefields of Gor, THIS is the bow for winners

These bows do not compromise: They are scripted and built to perform in the worst of conditions, its features are optimized for the large battles on gor.

1. Features

The bows perform without failure even in worst conditions, due to parallel scripting, prim and script minimization, simple texturing, mono compilation, a concise chat protocol and excluding gadgets that are not needed.
Its features are focusing on maximum performance in raids and defense situations, an ultra high register for low range arrows, lowering arrow bounce, but high buoyancy and an automatic aim correction in melee range.
unique Second life Zero directional slender arrows, italian design, with tracer glow tail feature to follow your hits that VISUALIZE which type of arrow you selected
ultra low lag feature with reduced script features and even more parallel scripting to battle even in worst conditions

The siege functions of the bow will have dramatic changes on the battlefield! They make this bow the ultimate weapon for the large wars on gor.

This bow has been developed for winners.

Adjustable arrow speed does NOT mean you shoot more arrows per second, and a high arrow speed does not mean you hit better: It only means the arrow flies faster or slower. The number of shot arrows per second is not changed with arrow speed. A slower arrow registers better, because the server has more time to estimate a hit. A fast arrow allows you to better hit a far away avatar that changes direction frequently. However a slow arrow that is also heavier flies a different curve: its downward directed flight vector enables you to aim for a direct hit without loosing the chance for a splash hit if you did not hit precisely enough. A similar effect is reached when a large avatar shoots at a small one from a greater height at a short distance.
Any arrow, approaching at an obtuse angle, faces a larger splash zone: The hit probability grows.

The CURVE of the downwards angle is determined by speed and by the weight of the arrow. However, a reduced arrow speed reduces reaction time if your opponent changes directions. Therefore these advantages count on short distances that are typical for battle.

Another tactical situation, typical for battle is opponents hiding behind walls. The buoyancy of a heavy arrow lets it drop inside from above, adding realism to battle like it has not ever been encountered on our Gor, where arrows fly straight and never drop. The deadly rain of arrows that archers aimed for, with their missiles coming from above that used to be a tactics on the medieval battlefield is now available for Battle on Gor!

Cathli&Larah

Gor matures!

1. Introduction
2. Disturbances in evolving Gor
2.1 Age Confirmation
2.2 “By-the-books”
2.3 “Roleplay-items”
3. Mature Gor
4. Conclusion

1. Introduction

Our SL Gor is quite easy to define: We roleplay in an environment scripted and designed to be as near to the descriptions in the books of John Norman as we can make it.
We copy lifestyles of typical groups and cities, and we build beautiful simulations of the world of Gor.

However, we do not STAGE the books, the dialogues and the events are primarily ours. That way new and entertaining stories evolve every day that could have happened in the books. In other words, we do not roleplay the books, we roleplay on the basis of the books.

In comparing the time between 2006 and today, the style of our roleplay changed little by little..and we are now in a different kind of Gor than we were.

2. Disturbances in evolving Gor
2.1 Age Confirmation

The introduction of age confirmation may have had an influence, however its effect was by no means immediate, if there was any effect at all. At times we had the impression that age confirmation made us more interesting for the pimply teenager than ever, and the adults were avoiding Gor altogether. However, it may be that the masses of teenagers that were intrigued by an age restricted area one by one left disappointedly and we now ARE a mature community.

It can however be taken as a fact, that sexual themed and or violent roleplay are exceptions and predominantly happen elsewhere outside gorean themed sims.

Both are not necessary to roleplay Gor as depicted in the books. A roleplay scene like…”I had, in my turn, with several of the other of the Forkbeard’s men, enjoyed Pudding and Gunnhild; both were superb” (Marauders of Gor, page 203)…are an entirely sufficient description for a scene that obviously depicts an orgy.

2.2 “By-the-books”

As mentioned above, the truest way to roleplay by the books is to stage scenes from the books. However, that is not meant here.In most cases, the “by-the-books” themed sims put a higher emphasis on men’s superior strengths and skills and even ban most or all female fighters from their sims' roleplay (Femlaw) or set up rules and conditions that favour their men dramatically. As a result women are to behave far more obedient to the overwhelming Gorean man on these sims, in many cases adopting oriental ways of dress (robes of concealment) combined with pre- victorian behavior.

Panther and Taluna tribes following this movement frequently battled each other. Ensuing roleplay is of course less rewarding, since the roleplayers stay in their environment that they are familiar with (in Panther camps) and the thrilling element of Men being part of the roleplay is entirely lost as well.

Therefore, like the name of this movement already indicates, a good name is used to sell restrictions on roleplay for a more pre- defined storyline, that appears less rewarding for the majority of roleplayers.

Subsequently countering this movement, several gorean themed sims like Sardar banned “by-the-books” roleplay groups from their sims.

All in all, “by-the-books” is in no way truer to scenes in the books. Its just a name (see this blog, July 2009, Disney movement). However, the main impact of this movement was a separation of second life Gor. Gorean Cities are usually roleplaying on their own or with other Cities, Outlaws, Mercenaries, Pirates and Panthers are frequently having their gorean roleplay elsewhere.

Sims depicting northern lives, like Thorvaldsland or Viking sims, barren sims depicting Savage tribes and jungle sims have a separate status, since they are not part of the main gorean rule set, as laid out by the three pillars of caste, homestone, slavery. These sims have proliferated due to a more relaxed handling of issues, since roleplay is less predetermined due to less sources in the books.

2.3 “Roleplay-items”

With the introduction of meter- controlled “Roleplay-items”, a rush to hoard these set in, leading to an increasing inflation and the usage of all kinds of cheats, causing great numbers of complaints and frenzied efforts of sim administrations to keep these under control. The outcome of “Roleplay-items” was predictably a massive increase of kidnappings to gain and gather items, while roleplay itself was negatively affected, since kidnappings were not motivated by roleplay but by gathering items. Sim Management frequently supported these raids, kidnappings and rescues to increase traffic. In order to support their groups, Sim Owners installed or allowed the installation of “Factory Units” and subsequently complained when they were malfunctioning, or deemed to be malfunctioning, while smaller groups on Gor who had less access to these items suffered member losses due to a more obvious disadvantage when trades could not be done.

3. Mature Gor

In parallel to all these disruptive movements on Second Life Gor the multiple efforts of Sim managements and roleplayers advertising ‘roleplay, roleplay roleplay’ have taken effect.
Ads for sims almost invariably mention a focus on roleplay.

Groups that do not go well together mix less, ‘captures’ are more roleplay oriented. Standard “bind-collar-brand-rape-cage” roleplay is frequently frowned upon as much as the unimaginative “submit-or-die” roleplay of former years. OOC- Auctions have become a fashion to finance sims and to promote a get together of players. A growing majority of roleplay is initiated behind the ooc curtain of the roleplay stage: The roleplayers are more involved in the initial preparational stages and in success oriented behaviors, success meaning a multi- faceted and richly scened play.
Raids are frequently announced and negotiated with sim management before they are even staged, with the benefit of a fair and welcoming moderation of issues and group leaders sorting issues in their own groups before they become disruptive to make it work.

3.1 Current status

We may or may not miss the happy “pew-pew” of the past like in the aria sims, we may or may not miss the quiet lonesome days in a cage or on a cross in deep dungeons without any roleplay, the endless ban list of many sims, we may or may not miss the neverending discussions about minor differences in the interpretation of sim- rules, but:

The awareness that roleplay with an unwilling party is rarely rewarding for both roleplayers has changed the way we act on gor dramatically:

Neither the expectation that reckless entering of a Panther/Outlaw/Merc/Pirate camp will invariably result in exciting capture roleplay as a captive, nor the expectation that capturing a happy Panther/Outlaw/Merc/Pirate from his/her camp would automatically create a submissive, sweet and loving kajira or at least a steaming night in the furs have proven to be the rule.

Mature roleplayers talk with each other, they plan and create, they hone their skills and shape their gorean bio s, they enter new roleplay consciously and considerate, creating wonderful storylines, creating THEIR gorean bio true to their hearts.

4. Conclusion

The mature gorean roleplayers, serene, confident in their status and roles took over. An increasing majority of roleplays evolve intricate storylines, multifaceted with either party winning over now and then, reflecting fairness and truthfulness in who we are.

Our Gor evolved to the better!

© Larah

A Sa Jerag Taluna on the warpath: Aria!

Now and then, we all are in the mood for a !DARE!...for those who are not Taluna, aria lets you share in her adventure that she forwarded to me like a little report in IMs, so typical of life in the jungles!

after meditating in the early mornins sun about the harsh life in the jungles….she begins her war with a strategic wardance…

[19:05] aria Easterwood: so we arent talunas anymore we are savages?
[19:06] aria Easterwood: thats like sooo fuckered up
[19:06] Larah Oh: hu?
[19:06] Larah Oh: what do you mean?[19:07] aria Easterwood: ppl calling us savages and someong killing a random person who happens to be my friend lol
[19:07] aria Easterwood: iknow itsonly rp and 24 hrs but
[19:07] aria Easterwood we give well smiggs group gets a lot i bet she will get alot of shit for someone killingsomeone
[19:08] aria Easterwood: over a no trade
[19:08] Larah Oh: we are no savages...savages by the books do exist
[19:08] Larah Oh: but they live in the barrens
[19:08] Larah Oh: whoever calls us savages did not read the books
[19:09] aria Easterwood: those 2 guys that were there in lovers acouple mins ago
[19:09] aria Easterwood: and he said im btb gorean
[19:09] aria Easterwood: meh w/e

the brave Taluna picks up her bow and her battle gear…and readies herself for war!

[19:10] aria Easterwood: do you have an lm where maddog is i wanna pay him a visit :P
[19:11] Larah Oh: maddog told me he left gor, Sis
[19:12] Larah Oh: maddog thunder that is
[19:12] aria Easterwood: wat
[19:12] aria Easterwood: hes profile says hes still in it
[19:12] Larah Oh: he said so to me
[19:12] aria Easterwood: hes still in it
[19:12] aria Easterwood: i just asked him D;
[19:12] Larah Oh: I m sorry...talk to him and ask him if he s back
[19:13] aria Easterwood: hes in luna
[19:15] Larah Oh: oh ok
[19:15] Larah Oh: I m happy maddog is back
[19:15] aria Easterwood: i didnt know he left i mean i left too sorta lool
[19:16] Larah Oh: true....:(

She sets up her goal…honour and bravery!

[19:17] aria Easterwood: ima find their fort and plant a fun flag lmao they are leaving to go somewhere lmao
[19:18] Larah Oh: giggles

but then…typical for war on Gor…the prey is evasive and sneaky…and tries to avoid the Huntress of the Jungles…

[19:26] aria Easterwood: oh god i dont know which one it is lmao D;
[19:26] Larah Oh: you are in the wrong one?
[19:26] Larah Oh: laughs
[19:28] aria Easterwood: is luna and deslisea or w/e the same thing
[19:29] Larah Oh: I really don t know where he lives now, aria
[19:29] Larah Oh: last I met him was in battle in schendi
[19:32] aria Easterwood: hes in
[19:32] aria Easterwood: deslira group now changed a lot

the proud and wild Taluna carefully approaches the battlefield…following the scent of her prey, guided by her honed instincts, years of experience in many wars:

[19:34] aria Easterwood: oh someone is up there D:
[19:34] Larah Oh: giggles
[19:34] aria Easterwood: aria Easterwood hears some doors opening and closes and just stays at the bottom holding onto her grapple and rope looking upwards..
[19:34] aria Easterwood: lulz
[19:35] Larah Oh: giggles...you are DARING sis
[19:35] aria Easterwood: they arent really supposed to hear that thats what imdoing not saying anyting LOL
[19:35] Larah Oh: hehe

the fierce Taluna circles her prey...considering the angle of the sun to be in her back…and the long grass hiding her tanned body gliding noiselessly nearer...using every tactical advantage the land offers:

[19:36] aria Easterwood: hes like radar emerald pretty close to me D:
[19:36] aria Easterwood: meh i dont hear doors so i dont reallly knwo if hes gone or not D;
[19:36] Larah Oh: giggles...then be careful
[19:36] aria Easterwood: i hate that cuz radar i do now lmao
[19:39] aria Easterwood: its too damn short
[19:39] aria Easterwood: D;
[19:39] aria Easterwood: lmao
[19:39] aria Easterwood: ill have to jump D;

despite second thoughts…NOW is the time when she will jump! her heart pounding:

[19:39] Larah Oh: need a ladder?
[19:40] aria Easterwood: like i cant i had to like rp that off the docks lmao
[19:40] aria Easterwood: grrr lmao
[19:40] Larah Oh: true...
[19:40] Larah Oh: go back to the docks and rp a ladder?
[19:40] aria Easterwood: they just left on a raid so i cant go back there they might be back soon D;
[19:41] aria Easterwood: omfg
[19:41] aria Easterwood: im in
[19:41] aria Easterwood: and imtotally whispering now lmao
[19:42] aria Easterwood: omg i need to find mads omg ppl omg ppl omgogmgomggomgomgogmgmo

the prey suddenly becomes aware of the Huntress…and PREPARES for battle! CAREFUL, Taluna of Gor!

[19:42] aria Easterwood: PPL ARE HERE OMFG
[19:42] Larah Oh: laughs...
[19:42] Larah Oh: run!
[19:43] aria Easterwood: oh shit
[19:43] aria Easterwood: omgggggggggg
[19:43] aria Easterwood: i soo hear them lmao
[19:43] aria Easterwood: im frekaing
[19:45] aria Easterwood: OMFGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGMORE PPL CAME LMAO OMGGGGGGGGGG

then with the shrill warcry of the feared Talunas of Sa Jerag she LIFTS her spear and FIGHTS!

[19:46] aria Easterwood: aria Easterwood screams as she gets her bow out, "OMG MORE PEOPLE," tries to get them all highly doubting she would ever do that only hearing one damned door and seeing about 4 people, drops down and as she's hit quite alot..
[19:46] Geni Morane: over here

the warcry is causing a massive confusion, people yelling and confusedly running here and there as it must be an ARMY that attacks!!!!!

[19:46] aria Easterwood: yes but id totally hurt my ass jumping from the fort lmao
[19:47] aria Easterwood: ahhaha
[19:47] aria Easterwood: they came back too fast lmao
[19:49] aria Easterwood: oh joy you know im gonna totaly get killed i shot her and shes preggo now how the hell im i supposed to know hat i hit anything that moves lmao
[19:49] aria Easterwood: and i dont read profiles
[19:50] aria Easterwood: well this is soo good lmao
[19:50] aria Easterwood: i can see what they have so i have ideas on what to make lmao

Suddenly and unexpectedly the proud Taluna of Sa Jerag is in peril herself…poor her…will she survive ??

[20:01] aria Easterwood: im bulding gorean rp shit now and idk i dont have any damn items anymore D;
[20:01] aria Easterwood: i swear rp has totally changed
[20:01] aria Easterwood: they dotn keep anyone anymore its wierd
[20:02] Larah Oh: yes...you are right
[20:02] aria Easterwood: they arelike ok i dont want to rp tonight release her hello not in gor youd never do that lmao

with soothing words the cunning Huntress of Gor calms the prey…and the dust settles…and the Taluna picks up her spear…whipes the dust from her leathers…

A lucky day for a brave Taluna…a lucky day for the tribe!

And a busy scribe takes note for the next wardance…the story of a hunt…Thank you aria, that you let us be part of it!!!

(editors note, as reported via IM:
[19:51] Larah Oh: hey sis may I publish your report?
[19:51] aria Easterwood: omg what report lulz
[19:51] Larah Oh: laughs..what you told me
[19:52] aria Easterwood: ogm idc lmao
[19:52] aria Easterwood: omg*)

this truly happened. Chronicles of Sa Jerag, 25th of April 2010

Areba...thank you

We are here to remember Areba. She left us a heritage, the remembrance of her personality, her friendship, her companionship, her visions, her words.

When Areba joined Sa Jerag, I asked her to write something about herself for the tribe, for her Sisters, for me. I told her I will publish what she writes, and she was happy to do that.

Areba said:

“My name is areba, known by many as lyl bitch. Though, I have gathered many other names along the way as well. Some better or worse then others, in any regards I careless what you call me, as long as I am alive to hear myself called.”

That was her greatest wish: to live!

We are sad, so sad. We are so sorry, Sis. You were wild, bragging and lewd when you joined, Sis: No you ve not been an angel, you ve been you!

…we hugged a lot, like we so often do. We danced a lot, like we so often do…we sat and talked about nothing, about everything. And you complained about your comp, about lag, about the silly things we all complain about.

You did not want to talk about your true sorrows and pain, you did not want to let us know, because when you were with us, you were away from all that. Areba. You did not want to be special or different: You wanted to LIVE, just like everyone "I careless what you call me, as long as I am alive to hear myself called"

I hope we gave you shelter, gave you the normalcy that you were looking for, gave you our friendship and our companionship in our hugs and sitting together, in our lil adventures and joys.

One day you purchased ALL our bows from our little shop. All of them. Of course you knew you won t need them all, it was your way to donate to the the tribe without us asking what you are doing. It was your way to say farewell, it was your way to say:”thank you, I leave you now, I won t return, but I thank you.” But you did not want to say that, because you were hoping you would return, despite the odds that you felt in your heart.

Sa Jerag is a Taluna tribe, we all have our reasons. Some of us are lone moms: stay- at- homes for lack of options, some of us live out in the middle of nowhere, some of us are simply lonely, some of us seek adventures that would be too risky or too stupid to have in our rl, some of us explore and suddenly and unexpectedly find love, some of us are ill…we are united in having found something that rl has denied us.

All these things are pettinesses. Unimportant. We could read a book or knit a sweater instead. And suddenly a Sister dies. Her only wish was to stay alive!

Areba did not openly tell. She will have had enough of that, so many times in hospital, so many bad and worse news, relatives, friends, casting their eyes down, not knowing what they should say or do to help. I will not dwell here on the sorrow and fear that must have been heavy as lead on her heart. Instead I quote Areba herself: “Nothing in life appears as I dream it to be. I never shed a tear on that, as it is my life, and crying do nothing for making it right.”

And Areba said:

“But never have I been alone. I always have something about, an odd voice, that I hear at times, calling unto me."

And she said: "Recently I managed an escape [...] I met up with an old friend, and decided to join her tribe, as a Taluna. Seeing we share many the same attributes, I felt was a good plan. I look forward to many an adventure, in my new home, amongst my lovely sisters.”

Areba wanted normalcy, she wanted to be one of us, bragging, lewd, silly, adventurous, exploring the options, exploring herself. We all do.

I am proud she was with us. I am proud Areba chose to share her precious time with us. In her way, she let us know: What you do is worth to do, its life, you give me something that I miss; Companionship, just for myself, not for me being different.

In a way, I believe we got to know the true Areba. That Areba that SHE wanted to be, not the Areba that fate poured out for her.

Thank you Sister for having been you. Thank you Sister that you found us good enough to share your time, your friendship, your companionship with.

That is Areba’s heritage, her message for us: Be grateful for your Sister next to you, who chooses to be with you, to share with you. Yes Areba, we take your message to our hearts.

We are in your debt.

And you, dear friends of Areba? Remember HER words:” … crying do nothing for making it right.”

Thank you for being here with me to remember Areba. Thank you for letting me tell about her.

Cathli&Larah